i want to remember to remember to forget you forgot about me.

axteezxa @ 2005-09-28T06:46:00

2005-09-28T10:48:03Z

I havent updated this thing since summer. Alot has changed since the summer of 05.

Jane, Gina, and Stace have grown closer then ever. We havent fought as much because we all realized how much drama we cause between each other and how stupid the shit is.

Me and Gina still talk every morning b4 school to go over outfits..

Tom and me are going back and i couldnt be happier. <3

Ill write more later..
<3

axteezxa @ 2005-06-24T06:32:00

2005-06-24T10:47:37Z

Last day of sophmore year.. kinda hard to beielve
It def had its ups and downs.

First year i actually loved someone. I know, heard to beielve and i sure as hell didnt show it but i did. I really cared alot in this relationship and i realized that it takes alot to give alot. I wasnt ready for a realationship like that because ive never had that "type". I never once had a boy that always wanted to hang out with me and who actually liked me for me. Ya, i fucked it up.. and if i could go back in time i would have never done it again but w/e. Im actually over this one kinda. It still sucks to see him and his new gf in the halls ways laughing and having a good time but for one thing is im glad they are happy. Im glad he found someone that was more like him. Im happy for him, no joke.

I made alot of mistakes this school year. Trusting people to much, getting into stupid fights, and alot of other things. You learn from them, and i just know that junior year i will not be making the same mistakes. Mistakes are a pain in the ass.

I need to learn to deal with what i have. I need to realize that what i have right now its good and that i dont need anything else to satfisy me. Theres no reason to be upset.

Ill be the first to tell you. Dont do anything serious with a person . unless you love them.

Ive learned to party this year. When i was a freshman, i never smoked, drank did anything for that matter. Now i ocasiioanly do both. Im not an alcholic, or a pot head. Just on friday nights you like to have a god time. Im not saying its right, or a good thing because its not. Ive decided not to smoke anymore.. i barely do anyway so it really doesnt matter.. i dont even like doing it.

My best friends have stuck by me this year. Through me balling me eyes out for 2 weeks over a break up and laughing my ass of about the randomiest things. I love my girllyy friends. Jane, Tits, Gina. They always seem to brighten up my day when im in a bad mood. Ohh boy do us girls get into the stupid fights,,.. and im prob the one to start them because for some reason i love to fight. Maybe its the reason that i know that we will always make up in the end. Us 4 have had a crazy year and im looking forward to another one

In 6 days ill be going to california with my family and jane. we are traveling up the west coast. No one lives over there.. its just a very far away vacation which i despreatly need. I need to get away from mansfield mass soon or im gonna fucking kill myself. Me and jane will have a splendid time togehter.. after the trip shes going to leave to see her mom all july. Im going to miss the bitch.. but shes coming back for my birthday ! sweet 16. !

Boys are boys. They never change. They want pussssyy and thats about it. They get it. and then they leave!

I miss having someone that comes over every night and watches movies.. and i miss having that one and only person you call at night to say your goodnites. I miss having stupid names for each other. I miss just being able to be around that person and it brings a smile to your face. I need to get over the fact that missing that isnt getting me anywhere and that i just need to get over it.

Lately... me and jason have become EXTREMELY CLOSE FRIENDS! He is the by far the funniest kid i have ever met in my whole life. Just if he comes over to watch tv.. or talk to my mom or to get coffee. He makes my day prob every day. haha my mom loves him to death..Im surprised that he has lives so close to me for some many years.. and we werent friends. Im gladd i found ya you stupid melted suga.

Anway.. no ones gonna read this. and it doesnt matta.

Everyone have a good summer..

<3 Mandaa

axteezxa @ 2005-06-09T06:36:00

2005-06-09T10:44:04Z

I havent updated in a while. I kinda just been doing 3 of the same things. Working Sleeping and school. It summer though, and ive been slacking off completely. I havent read the Great Gasby, and i shoul have read like 4 chapters. I got 4 projects. One in each class. ha i should get working on those.

Its been so hott lately. My house is freezing because my mom blast the AC. but just outside, it sometimes unbearable. Hmm so my weekend.. and week went kinda like this.
Friday: Hung out with a buncha people @ intercourses house and got the elmwood CD. yeah and left it there.
Sat: I think i went out with my mom, then had to work with bombs and kate. Then i ended up going out with deprerio and stace
Sunday: Beach :-) Stace slept over all weekend :-)!DCDS too
Monday: School...hung with bombs... watched movies
Tuesday: went to school 2 hours late.. i wanted to sleep. I Hung with jason i bit then i had to go to work. It wasnt that bad, kenny worked with me and i talked to bombs the whole time. then home.
Wed: Field trip in boston with her HOtt kelly and jane and gill and sean and lauren and carylon and julie and vero and kaitlin. It was a ton of fun. We just kinda walked around the whole musesum the way we pleased. We also saw the polo raulh lauren cars. Then i came home around 3 . jason picked me up. Hung with jane a lil then DCDS

Today. i got no idea. Getting my paycheck, then il prob go swimming

cuz im a wishful thinker.. with the worst intentions

2005-05-21T17:28:44Z

Well. i havent updated in forever.
I havent been doing much. I wrote 2 papers for the only 2 classes i had . with the help of jane.

I fallen in love with fall out boy even more then i was before. They are just sucha a good bad. and total eclipse of the heart is the best song.
Ive been hanging with my old friends. and its a good feeling, i was missin them.
I hate juniors :-) I cant wait til your gone haha .. not all of them.

Im going to miss benzi when he leaves. but hes going to visit me because kips.
Seniors are gone in 2 days.
I soon will be traveling to cali with my best friend!!! for 2 weeks

Work is a bitch, but its getting me an green ipod.

Talent show. haa it was a good time.
Janes party- Another fab time. I love you jane :-)

Im in a perdicament.Its bad. but i think ino what im doing.

i got my nails off, because i like my real ones.. they loook good.

We belong together. <3

Loves an excuse to get hurt... well do you like to hurt.. i do. so hurt me

2005-05-09T10:44:06Z

Prom was fun.We went to staces house and took pics. im gona put pictures up here when i have the chance. they are in staces profile if you just cant wait. I had fun. Except for the part where they sat jay gad @ my table, but shit happens right. Karma's a bitch. We danced and hung with sass the whole night. She is the cutest lil thing. It wasnt a dissapointment, but it wasnt as good as i expected. I thought that it would have been alot better then it was. Next year will be fun because all our friends wil b there instead of like two.

After prom we drove home in the limo. and hung around for a bit. Then we got in aarons car, did our thing. Then went back to aarons and watched some tv. Just a lazy prom night. Well. it wasnt that bad actually. I enjoyed it.
Saturday: went out to eat with mom, then i went to work.

Well.. theres a huge situation right now with gina. but im going going to tell the whole world abt my feelings because ginas the only one that needs to hear them.

I like someone. Theres no point though. :-) Lovely.. this always happens.

I love rumors that arent true!

Have a good day <3 amanda

axteezxa @ 2005-05-05T06:45:00

2005-05-05T20:43:29Z

I havent updated in a while
Nothings really going on. Prom is tommorow. im excited. Thank god stace is going with aaron now because we will both have a better time.
Im so sick of fighting, so im done, plus theres no reason
im finally over it <3
Tonight im hangin wit randy..
and tommorow im getting dismissed @ 1230 to get ready

leave one <3

thatss soo rare

2005-04-27T15:06:26Z

Well its been awhile.
im alot better now, thanks to some certain people. They made me reailze something.
I know for a fact that i love him. No doubt about him, but now mayb its just the idea of him. Its the idea of how hes perfect. The idea that he could do no wrong. But now, that ive seen him after ive reailzed he isnt perfect, and hes able to break your heart over and over again. Gina said thats what it was for her, so maybe thats wat it is for me. I mean i miss him, and i couldnt see
myself with anyone else, but in a way im over it. I dont see it happening because he is hte worlds biggest dick to me, not that i dont deserve it, but hes gone a lil far. Ive cried over and over again because what he has said to me. Ive called gina, stace, jane all on the phone because i didnt know what else to do. It kills me what he says. That i lying, still. that i used him. Now, no. i didnt use you. are u kidding me. We spend so many nights together just holding each other and being together, wat the hell would i use you for. i loved you tom. Dont start telling me how i feel, because honestly you wouldnt know. you havent seen me or hung out with me since you broke my heart. Ya, people make mistakes, but you forgive themm and this time, i wouldnt do a single thing wrong.
But now, im over it.
For good. I wont always bring up things that remind me of him anymore.
I wont look in the morning (ally)
I wont even talk about him, because its fucking pointless.

And for sarah- I dont have a problem with your friend. At first i did and then i realized it was childish, until she started to do it. So what do you think me and stace are going to do, we are going to start on up again, and we will stop if she stops.Sarah, i wouldnt wanna lose you as a friend, and if its over this is stupid. I dnt see how its fair. Shes telling you to not be our friends, because we make fun of her. Well im not telling you to not be her friend bc shes makes of me. Shes your friend, i wouldnt want to tell you not be it because it would make me feel better. :-) I just want my saassssa to be happy

Theres no need for commments, im not looking for any.

axteezxa @ 2005-04-20T23:42:00

2005-04-21T03:46:40Z

Well lately i really dont know.
This vacation hasnt been too bad, except for the fact that my friends.. idno.

Today... i woke up. Went to work 11-2. It sucked, but i didnt mess up once. It was def a first. Then i got burger King. Met this kid named jeff inside. Hes from norton, he seemed very nice. hm. Then i went tanning.
I have a suburn now. It kills.
Well i got home, was in the shower.. and i go outside the shower in a towel, and to my surprise scott nick and jason are in my house.
We hung around.. gina came by.
They left around 5ish.... then we had dinner. then went to scotts house
im confused.

ps. imm soo happy that youve become a dick. N im not being sacrastic.

<3LOVE IS JUST AN EXCUSE TO GET HURT.

axteezxa @ 2005-04-19T10:36:00

2005-04-19T14:43:12Z

The person who you can always count to be there and catch you when your at your worst. Someone who knows all your secrets and silly little crushes. That person you can have a horrible fight with then go shopping for matching bracelts half an hour later. That one person you sit in her room all day jumping up and down listening to Dashboard confesstionals. A person who can tell you the truth. and would do anything in their power to not get you upset - Best friends.

fdskndsfsd
jkfdsfsdfs

there is no point.

2005-04-13T10:48:14Z

OKay. yeah i hate fighting.. but theres thats the only way to fix things. What happened today. really go me upset, and im going to confront you because its the only way to let you know how i feel. I hate fighting as much as u do, does anyone like to fight?. W.e, be mad @ me when you really dont have a reason. I was just letting you know how i left today.

Anywayy.. yesterday i tried to go get a job. i may have gotten it, a huge possiblity that i didnt, but ya never know.. maybe he will. Ugh. Then i saw chris @ work. ha that was fun. It must suck. having all those.. rocks in .. your . car. haha. I saw jay. didnt say a word, stace talked to him though. Im not sure if it was to get me upset, or just to say high.I bet she didnt want to get me mad.. but he did hurt me pretty bad.. and just hmm i dont know. i lost my train of thought. It didnt get me mad, surprisingly. maybe because i dont care anymore, but still.

Then we went tanning and stuff and then studied for a huge english test i have today.
Ohhh NO more math. im so excited. No, its dance movement. this should be very interesting.

well i neeed to go catch da loser crusier with my buddy ally<333

leave me a comment. <3

axteezxa @ 2005-04-09T20:15:00

2005-04-10T00:22:00Z

Wellk. lately ive havent been myself, ask anyone. I mop around and dont talk. This isnt the amanda i want to be, but it happens. Really, Only my best friends can put a smile on my face, or a special pair of shorts :-(
Well, Friday. I got dunkin donuts after school and then pat came over. We hung around.. do the usually. Watched tv. Then zach wyatt and dan came over and we watched movies. It was an interesting time. They were being bad in my back yard, but oh well. Stace came lata and we al just chilled. I wanted jane to come but she wasnt up to it.
Saturday: Stace called me and she said we were going to the mall. We went to south shore, Shopped around, i found a shirt from express. but i didnt end up buying it because it was ultra expensive.Im going tanning tommorow with stace bombs, wow. i found something and got really excited haha stace .

uGH. i dont know anymore i should give up. im obsessed and its stupid. Hes over it and im not. He doesnt want me anymore. Im shit to him.
Ugh. stopp it amanda.

Okay, well ill right more lata

i hope the owen twins are having fun on their cruise and i mad they didnt take me.
ohhh party:-)

axteezxa @ 2005-04-04T18:54:00

2005-04-04T22:59:04Z

im letting the world know. that this is the worst day of my life
* Drop everything out of my bathroom closet in the morning
* I walk into the girls locker room in the morning.
* Jay gad telling me he cant take me to prom.
* I bought a 300 dollar dress that i cant return
* Aaron asked me to prom. i told gina, she almost killed me. and it wasnt even my fault. i said no.
* Benzi thought i ditched him when i snuck out because stace made me
* this is the big one.
***** Tom delmar came to pick up his sweatshirt, probably to give to his new girlfriend. I just looked @ him and i didnt even know what to say. i just looked @ him and thought that i losed and how much i really care for him. still. Thats over with .

yeah. this day cant get much worsE. maybe ill break a limp @ dance tonight

fuck you
god, damn it

i hope you like roses up ur ass.

axteezxa @ 2005-04-04T06:35:00

2005-04-04T10:43:43Z

i can honestly tell you right now that i have huge trust problems.
I used to be able to trust someone. Now its physical impossible for me to actually let my walls done.

Well. this weekend has been in interesting one.Friday: Skipped track, i think im quitting and getting a job, but besides that i hung out with stace and sassa.Then jane came and we were all chilling then me and stace went to shaws bc we needed lettuce. That night, we were suppose to hang out with jay and all them, but someone got ditched for a boys night.. but then it somehow ended as a boy/girl night with girls sleeping over. i dont fucking get you jay. You tell me to care, u tell me, i like it when you get mad abt things over me. and you tell me to actually trust you. Fuck that. im sorry. Dont ever think that im going to beielve you again. i hope your happy<3!OHH BUT that night we hung with janes dad then mike and then a lil bit of dan. but not really.

Saturday: I went prom dress shopping.. to go to prom w/ jay. Im still going, i think. But i went with stace and her mom and my mom. We had a grand oll time. I got a blue strapless one. Ill prob get a picture up here. Then us girls went to a nice restarant called the chateau and ate some lovely food. The mothers and us had a lovely talk about everything, it was good. That night i hung with jane and chris, alex and stace and me and zach. I had a really nice time. I kinda do like zach a lil bit, but hes going to the marines in like 2 weeks and he will be gone for 3 months. so, im just kinda in a werid mood about it. I did like jay, until he used me. but besides that one again.

Sunday: Did my child DEV project. then went to the mall and panera. I got home around 6 then jane and chris and zach came over and we watched a movie.. went to wendys.. then this place and then went home
<333 it was fun

Ughhh i cant beielve you
p.s im glad me and steve our friends again.

spring and Track <3

2005-03-31T11:47:21Z

i love Spring and Track. i just like running when its so nice outside. I just wanta go outide and just sit. Me and jane plan on doing that today @ the track meet. Thank god i have her. Yesterday she left me for her boy. but its cool. because i did it to her.

It really sucks to have no one. Like i want someone to just be around, to come over, to watch movies with.. but that persons actually gotta care. Im finding out that its pretty hard to find. It seeming to be such a hassle. I see couples in the hall. couch hahaha so funny cough. and yeah its really starting to get me. Exceptially when you laugh.. i mean its just soo fucking funny, wait.. im not getting it. i dont think its funny @ all.

Benzi is awesome. Id just thought about saying it.

swwl<3 .its love
[

well i bet everyone is so interested in my life.
Well im going to prom with jay. It should be a hell of a time. Im excited. Stace is going to. and shes going in our limo bc she cant go in the other one. Im going dress shopping on saturday and starting tanning tommorow. Ya.. thank god amanda is the palest thing you have ever seen .Ohh after prom we are going to a beach house.

Wel today jay isnt picking me up because hes running late, plus we got mad on the phone yeseterday.. that also could be a reason.

well.. track meet today.. i cant wait. i mean i love sitting and doing nothing for 10000 hours.
Janes sleeping over tonight and watching le divorce.

FRENCH KIDS CAME. and one of them is staying wtih ally and i plan on meeting him<3 i met oliver and valentine.cute stuff. well.. comment your ass of ladies and gentlemen.

oh..plus.. if your a bitch .. then im a bitch <3

axteezxa @ 2005-03-26T20:23:00

2005-03-27T01:23:24Z

GUESS WAT
GUYS SUCK AND I HATE THEM <3

axteezxa @ 2005-03-21T19:03:00

2005-03-22T00:11:11Z

MM. kay, so im going to make a new journal this week, if i have time.
Sunday: wow,im really not sure what to say right here. Im confused, and really excited. i dont know.No ones gonna get what im talking about except jane but thats mmkay.
Monday: Jay picked me up nice and early. We talked. it was good. Went to school. funniest thing happened @ lunch, Anthony droped stacys gatrode cover on the ground. Stacy took josh's cover. Then josh was getting mad and wanted it back. stace was just like.. get it off from the ground and right when josh went to go get it . some kid named timmy picked it up and started running back to his sit like he had found a piece of gold. It was um.. lets just say interesting. Had a macbeth test, and reviewed math with sean :-)
Had the first day of track. It wasnt that bad til i fould out someone was doing it. its going to be werid. whateverrr ill def get used to it. Came home, chilled, sang LFO with aaron. haha the kid knew the song and then took a nap because i was crazy tired. I have dance tonight, and im not looking forward to it.

.. im in a really happy werid mood.. hmmm.. good bad? i really dont know.
\

p.s Me and stace saw someone in the hall way. and i was like hes uglier now. and she said he wasnt. and i was like he was.. and we fought about it. and i realized he wasnt. damn.

GOD manda. i hate when you talk to people.

2005-03-13T19:30:42Z

This has been an extremely interesting weekend.
Friday: Had HALF day. i stayed after to go over some stuff with my english teacher. LOST JANE. then hung with scott. After all that interesting stuff i called my mom and she picked me up and took me to stacys house. Then jay came and picked us up, we found jane and then we picked up chris. After all that fun, we went to the golden panda for lunch. Then we rented a movie and went to jays and watched it. I have fun with jay.hmm..

Then jane and chris went to chris's house. Im so happy for jane. She needed someone like chris to swept her off her feet like he did. He is so much better then whats his face. She is so much better then that asshole was and im so happy for her. Yeahh babe :-) He is so sweet to her.

Stace came over my house and then nick did. We watched a movie and i was tired so i like fell asleep on the couch. and then they woke me up because they wanted to get subs. So i woke up and then we went and got subs. We ended up hanging out @ my house til 2. Stace slept over and nick left.

Woke up, and did nothing til 3. Well we went to dunkin donuts. But then we went to mass preimere courts and used the batting cages. ahaha i was soo excited. i had fun haha

Then we had subs again and went to ginas. Drama Drama Drama @ this house. Well we were hanging around and then we were gona hang with this kids, but we didnt and then dan n mike came over. We had fun with them. We ordered pizza and watched the a movie. i didnt like the movie.. but ohh well. Then i found out something that killed me. I fucking wanted to shot myself in the fucking head. haha im beautful and find someone else. i wonder why you said that.. maybe bc you did. fuck you.

cool man. Whattt ever.. i mean boys are worth it anyway. None of them, so you shouldnt let them get to youu

I miss talking to kevin, but shit happens.Right.

axteezxa @ 2005-03-10T18:32:00

2005-03-10T23:32:28Z

wow, your an asshole

im not worth anyones time

its over. ill just get it over it. i mean, so good @ that right.

axteezxa @ 2005-03-06T14:57:00

2005-03-06T19:58:04Z

i deleleted this journal.. and i activated it again.
it think im going to start a new one. Just something fresh and different.
so if anyone has any ideas for names and wants to be added to the new one just comment

axteezxa @ 2005-03-03T13:15:00

2005-03-03T18:58:49Z

Time started: 1.16
Full name: Amanda mae sara Aarons
Nicknames: manda chika aaarooon and sugar pie
Birthday: August 3 1989
Where were you born? Boston

Height: 5'2

Weight: 115
Hair Color: light brown with a tint of blonde.

Eye color: blue
Shoe size: 7 1/2
Ring size: 6
Skin type: white.. im not tan @ all

Blood type: no clue

Grade: 10
GPA: i dont know. very bad
Siblings: Jonathan and Emily
Tattoos: nope
Piercings: cartalige and soon to be belly button. i want my nose
Hobbies: OMG. are u kidding me. VBALl. ha

Favorites:

Color: pink and yellow
Food: a spicy chicken and side salad @ wendys :-)

Candy: Gummi BEARS.
Type of cheese: uh. kraft. ha
Pizza topping: cheese
Salad dressing: i like alot.
Sandwich: turkey sandwitch
Cereal: special k.
Fruit: bananna. and apples
Vegetable: Tomatos
Berry: strawberrys
Cake: i hate cake.
Book: Catcher in the rye
Movie: The notebook and how to lose a guy in 10 days
Magazine: Seventeen
Newspaper: im really not sure
TV show: one tree hill and laguna.. haha laguna in july for me !
Website: www.webshots.com

Radio station: kiss 108, 945. ha
Font: size 7 arial.
Cartoon character: Dora the explorer
Artist: kurt halsey
Actor: George Clooney
Actress: Naomi Watts and Rachel McAdams
CD: Gavin Degraw
Song: Hopeless love by daphne loves derby

Music group: the postal service
Music type: everything
Day of the week: Friday
Month: August

Season: Summer
Holiday: Halloween. and my birthday
Shampoo: Ralph Lauren
Number: trois !!!
Phrase: i wanta wrap you in rubber ha
Store: Hollister and AF
Weather: Nice out, not to hott but not to cold

Restaurant: Bertuccis
Channel: WB
Teacher: Ms.skidmore right now. but ms.martinelli
Weekend activity: going shopping and watching movies with friends
Hangout: Usually my house or ginas
House color: blue
Sport to watch: Football
Sport to play: VBall ha
Animal: panda or a raccoon
Flower: Rose
Guy's name: Ryan or Brian
Girl's name: Deveny. and danielle
Board game: Monopoly, duh.
Party game: Spin the bottle. thats sooo second grade.
Body part: Hands

Have you ever...?

Been on a train? yup
Been on a plane? yup
Been in a car accident? yupp a bunch
Caused a car accident? i didnt cause it.. i dont think
Run into a wall? haha yesterday in english
Burned a potato chip? no. lol
Smoked? uh maybe
Been drunk? yes
Been high? hjfdjhfdsfdsj
Broken the law? yeah
Burned a CD? a bizzlion
Kissed someone of the same sex? yeah hah stace bombs
Frenched an animal? no i havent
Made out? yes
Had cyber sex? nope
Gotten engaged? no
Had an online relationship? nope, that seems a lil wrong
Been rejected by a crush? yup :-(
Loved? just fell out if it
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? yup.
Cried in public? Yesterday ha.
Cried over a movie? yeah, the notebook with stace and my grandma

Fallen asleep in a movie theater? almost but no
Given someone a bath? haha jane and em!
Been to a boarding school? no and i dont plan on it
Been home-schooled? nopeee
Lost a valuable item? yeah, my ring.
Bungee jumped? not yet
Skied? yeah, and i twisted my ankle and ive never done it again
Met the president? nope
Met a celebrity? haha i dont think so, i met damion on MTV.. if that counts..

Gotten a cavity? nope never
Shopped at Abercrombie & Fitch? all the time
Made a prank call? haha yeah, with my buddies. Your POPULAR arent ya BITCH
Skipped school? Yes .. badd kid
Faked sick to get out of school? Yes.. when you have a hard test.
Purchased something that you knew didn't fit? uhm, yes.. as bad as that seems
Climbed a tree? yup
Fallen from a tree? nope
Broken a bone? nope
Sprained anything? my ankle
Passed out? i dont think so
Made yourself pass out? no...
Been to Disney? 8 times!
Been to a theme park (not Disney)? uhhh yah
Said I love you and meant it (not to a relative)? yup :-(
Made a model volcano? haha latin !
Made a clover leaf with your tounge? i cant do it

Past.

What did you do yesterday? Yesterday i went to school and then i went with jay to drivers side and then out to eat with him. Came home and went to bed
Memory you miss the most: Quebec already..
Memory you want to forget: FALLING in love.
Something you regretted after it was done: no comment

The last...

Song you heard: tool sober. delmars fucking song.
Thing you said: i sneezed. and said excuse me
Time you cried: Yesterday @ school
Movie seen in a theater: Hitch. with tom.
Thing you ate: Apple pie
Person who called: Kevin
Nail polish shade worn: red
Time you showered: last night
Person who complimented you: Jay

At this moment.

What are you listening to? Just friends by Gavin Degraw
What are you wearing? Red pants from express and a vball shirt
What are you thinking? tom.
What are you scared of most? dying
How many people are on your buddy list? 189

Future.

Occupation: teacher
Marriage site: outside
Honeymoon: bahamma's
Place to live: Somewhere close
Kids: maybe 1 or 2
Car: Lexus.
What are you doing tomorrow:Going to school then out to dinner

Do you think george bush will be elected agian? he did. i dont like him.
Will politics ever be truthful? never
Will humanity snuff itself out? maybe..
Can the gov. be changed? yes

Do you believe in?

Heaven: yes
Hell: yes
Angels: yes
Devil: idno
God: idno
Buddha: idno
Aliens: no
Ghosts: ya
Soulmates: yup
Reincarnation: maybe
Love at first sight: no
Karma: yup.
Love in general: i think so
Luck: sya

Yourself: sometimes

Crush.

Who and when was your first crush? in 5th grade matt hatfield
Any now? nope

A celebrity crush? Ryan phillps
Who do you want to be with right now? no comment
Who's number do you want? uhm... paris
Who do you want to kiss? no one right now im sick
If you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be? idno
On scale of one to ten, how romantic are you? 5
First thing noticed about the opposite sex: eyes
What do you look for personality-wise? need to be funny
Biggest turn on: compliments
Biggest turn off: cocky
Something they wear that turns you on: striped collered shirts from AF.
Something they wear that turns you off: necklances
The most romantic thing you want to happen to you: i have no idea
The most romantic thing that has happened to you: a snow ball fight in the snow.
What do you wear on a coffee date? jeans and a tshirt
Is it right to flirt if you're taken? im a flirt . so yeah. but to an extent.
Is cyber cheating? ew.
Are eyes the passegeway to the soul? uhmm mayb
Who would you like to take to the prom? someone who cares
Do you want to hug somebody right now? sure, i like hugs
Do you know what an aphrodisiac is? spider.. idno.

Describe...

Mellow: relaxed
Melancholy: upset
The perfect date: incredible
How M&M's are made: huh.
Why manhole covers are round: because they wanta b

Coke/Pepsi: diet coke

Sprite/7-Up: Sprite
Boxers/briefs: doesnt matter
Gold/silver: silver
Vanilla/chocolate: vanilla
Flowers/candy: Flowers
Book/magazine: Book
TV/radio: radio
Glass half empty/half full: half full
Democrat/Republican: Democrat bc i like to get tom mad. ha
Colored pencils/markers: colored pencils
Coffee/tea: my moms tea. right jane
Sun/moon: moon
Day/night: Night
Hot/cold: cold
Dog/cat: cat
Button/zipper: Zipper
Cotton/feather pillow: feather pillow
Blue/purple: Purple
Plumber/trashman: neither
Jeans/shorts: shorts
Long distance relationship/none: none
Mechanical/regular pencil: Mechanical
Matt/Ben: Ben
That 70's Show/Simpsons: doesnt matter
Kelso/Eric: Kelso
Donna/Jackie: Donna
Bart/Lisa: Lisa
Romeo/Juliet: Juliet
Romantic comedy/thriller: Romantic
N'Sync/BSB: NSYNC
Peanut butter/jelly: i like htem together
Waffles/pancakes: if i had to pick.. pancakes

Letter/email: Letter
Florida/California: California
Pizza/burgers: pizza
Hat/visor: hat
Football/rugby: football .. i think
Iceskating/blading: iceskating
Movie at home/in theater: movie at home

First thing you think of when you hear..

Yellow: lipstick
Red lipstick: Mother
Socks: i need more
Cowtipping: nipples
Moulin Rouge: blood
Iceland: cold
Harry Potter: interesting
Red: apple
Blackberry: ...burberry
Rose: love
Rooster: cockadoodle do
Taxes: bad
Bill Clinton: da man/monica

Whipped cream? noo i dont like it
George W. Bush: hjfdghfd
Lollipop:sucker

Dreams: clouds
Love: anger
Guys: not worth it.
South Park: who killed whats his face
Boy bands: bye bye bye
Pengiuns: iceland
Girls: b i t c hes
Death: suicide
Spoons: soup
Junk mail: delete
Dairy: products
Your father: crazy
Pizza: planet
Britney Spears: opps i did it .. again
Vitamin: C

Are you..?

Happy? nope
Sad? ya
Religious? nope
Bitchy? yup
Crazy? yeah
Messy? nope really
Mad? nope.
Slacker? yeah

Nerd? ya and i like it
Bookworm? not @ all
Jock? no
Preppy? yeah
Selfish? yeah
Giving? when i wanta b
Obsessive? kind of
Violent? nope
Calm? yah
Peaceful? yeah
Mellow? nope
Eccentric? yeag
Caring? yeah
Untrustworthy? i am trustworthy
Loyal? yeah
Patriotic? nope
Perverted? sometimes
Colorful? sure
Artistic? i cant draw

Miscellanoues

What color is your jacket? blue
Do you shave? yahh i do
What size is your bed? small
What color crayon would you be? light pink
What are the last four digits of you phone number? 5431
Feelings on abortion? no comment
How long does it take you to shower? 15-20 min
What does your screenname mean? joke in 8th grade
Thoughts on blonde pop stars in general? whores
Who do you trust the most? jane
Is cussing a necessity in life? i need it
How about coffee? i like it
Is the world screwed? yeah
What's something you can't live without? music
What time did you fall asleep? 1030
Know what 69 means? sure do
How about 143? yupp
Can you live without a microwave? i need it
What do think about death? sad

Where and when do you want to be married? outside
Do you want to drop out of school? i wouldnt do it
Why is the sky blue? bc blue is pretty
What is a good trait about yourself? im pretty sincere
What do you always think about? how life can sometimes fuck you up in the end
What is wrong with your school? too long
What is right with your school? the ppl in it some of them
How do you react to change? i dont like change
Do you talk to yourself? sometimes
What is your opinion on love? its.. umm idont know
Can you afford to lose weight? i could
What color would you dye your hair? a ligher brown

Best thing anyones told you? I love you
What is your reaction to someone telling you you're hot? its nice
Does being psycho appeal to you?no
If you wrote a book, what would it be about?uhh i dont know
What would you change your name to? barbie. ha
Longest crush lasted how long? uhh prob a couple months
Time finished? 158

<3 a blast.

2005-02-25T04:48:20Z

Hanging with my friends in Quebec was way to much fun. i did the craziest shit.

<3 pictures for your lovely enjoyment.

http://photobucket.com/albums/v435/janeopaino654/Quebec/

axteezxa @ 2005-02-19T18:08:00

2005-02-19T23:10:26Z

Tommorow starts the fun.
Im going to be in canada til wed night
Its should be a good time, going with all my best friends and just not thinking about anything.
i can not wait for a break
<3 Leave it if youll miss me even though i know i wont have one comment in this thing.
haha 17.. i did it. <3haha

Wish you were here :-(

axteezxa @ 2005-02-16T16:29:00

2005-02-16T21:31:10Z

im so excited for quebec? who else is?

axteezxa @ 2005-02-06T21:42:00

2005-02-07T02:42:16Z

Im really confused. i dont know who i can trust with secrets and who i cant i dont know if my friends actually care for me i dont know if i really like who i say i like, but i cant talk to anyone about it because they dont wanta fucking hear it. i dont like whats happening right now, i feel like im losing my best friend and i dont know why. maybe because im not fun enough anymore. Theres nothing i can do about being sad unless someone decides to help me. i want to realize who is actually going to b there when i need someone, considering no ones here right now. i want my two best friends to try and include me and not make me feel like odd man out. im always the one that tries to push to be around them and i dont want to push anymore, i just feel like being accepted. your probably, gonna read this and thinks its all bullshit, but its not. dont comment.

axteezxa @ 2005-02-05T11:40:00

2005-02-05T16:55:58Z

its been so long since ive updated. Maybe because nothing interesting is happening. Ive fallen in the love with the song scars and wish you were here. i play them over and over again.
Ill start on monday: Had a french final. i was in such a good mood. It was justin timberlakes bday. I learned that from doing staces project. ahah she got a 90 by the way. Then i studied for the other finals and went to hip hop with stace. after all that jane came with the dog and stayed @ my lovely house. it was a fun night. Emily loved angel which is rather cute.
Tuesday: Woke up early so me and jane could both get ready. Took the two finals and then my mother picked up me jane and stace to go to the mall and shop. We were there most of the day then went to toms and worked out in his gym. Actually only me and tom worked out and hte rest of the lazy ones watched Anger Management. Went home. slepted over janes and watched one tree hill and then went to bed really late because we were having way to much fun.
wED:1/4 day. Took my final, which i did incredible on. Then walked to janes with brandon and stace. We hung out there and tom picked me up and we went out to eat and stuff. Went back to janes then andy picked us up with his friend Ryan. We went to play pool. Scott showed up. I hadnt seen him in ages. It was exciting. i suck @ pool, and everyone made fun of me. After the amazing time we went to mcdonalds and the mall. came home and then tom came and hung out with me.
Thru: started new classes. They arent horrible but non of my good friends are in any of them. That night i went to ginas house then i was going to go to the gym with jane but i got sick. Came home and just memorized the states.
Friday: Went to school. Had a crazy time making a collage in child development. Came back to my house with tom. got in a fight with him. Then went to janes to get ready for the show. We had a blast being fools.
The show was really good. Elmwood played crazyy and so did rocket underground and adylene!!!.<33. i was kind of avoided but its okay. i dont mind. i hate how sometimes you talk to a person online so much and in person they are nothing to you though. lol
i talked to pat. and i hadnt talked to him in ages.
I got anthonys pick. yehhhhhhhhh
Today im going out today for lunch. Then going to staces house or the mall. Today is the dresdon dolls show with the best friends.

welll me and jane have pics and ill post them soon

<333 well...